Ending

Ending is always the harder part of the relationship. When a relationship ends, it means it is over forever and ever and those who are deeply emotional will realise that this is the most painful part. For those who don't understand this emotion, it just means two things. Either your just hiding it and running away from it because it is unacceptable, in other words, self denial or you haven't love deep enough. Either way, at the point of rejection, it hurts, it will make you cry, do the most unreasonable things and definitely reminds you of the person you once had something with. It is until you accept it that you can move on and see the world in a more colourful way once again. Until then, you will be tortured and decisions made will be regreted once in a while but don't let that change you. Remember that every decision was made for a reason, there is no regret to that. If you do regret it, go back and fight for it but make sure it will hurt less for a long time and not temporary which is what most people desire at a point so called 'point of no return'. A breakup can last so long simply because this decision is so painful and filled with guilt. Dragging and walking on the torturing road of decisions can hurt so many others, lost so much more important matters because one's focus is only on that road. Don't be selfish, if you realised that you are hurting another person, then let go because you love the person. And if you think your the one who is hurt, don't let guilt torture the one you once called lover. Don't ever let yourself think he/she completes your world because if it is true, you wouldn't be crying alone. And if you found someone worthy of your love, then appreciate him/her, make her/him smile because you can't help making her/him cry once in a while (cry means true love). If you have no one, then remember there are many meaningful people and events waiting for you to discover and care for. They are meaningful because they love you too (Friends, crushes, family, facebook attention...etc)So love those who are worth with your heart and soul.

Ps. Life is never easy. Career, love, money, health, daily luck...etc...that is why horoscope existed...But most importantly don't forget to smile after you cried...XOXO

The idea of love

Do one love the person for who they are or who you thought they are? Often people take a glimpse and make a superficial judgement on the person based on some basic information they figure out through friends, facebook, blog, looks, career, a little character or simple do they smoke, drink? Party? or cook, fun or nerd? Let's say girl A went out with her friends and they told her this amazing story about this guy, hot, smart, rich, good to friends, absolutely adorable. Later that night girl A went to facebook, look upon his profile, read his comments, felt his little funny side through the comments, random and interesting yet stable and responsible, ie everything she is looking for. Without her noticing, she started to fall in love with this guy without even talking to him. How did that happened? A little crush over a person she imagined to be perfect happened. See what I am trying to project to you? Telling you the story of girl A loving a guy who she thought to be the guy of her dreams. Now the story can go both ways, either Mr Perfect can ask her out and be the best guy ever for her (ie match made in heaven) or Mr Perfect can turn out to be Mr Player, Mr Free Spirit, Mr Jealous, Mr Control Freak, Mr Dreamer, Mr Sticky, Mr Everything but Mr Perfect. Either way, girl A let herself fall in love with the idea of being in love and not actually loving Mr so called Perfect. She let herself vunerable even before she started. So lesson: Miss A will know to learn and understand a person more than just what she believe or make herself believe in before falling in love because LOVE can be beautiful or ugly. It is the best and worst thing you can feel to get the ultimate love. Always love but love wisely :)

Decisions are superficial

When one makes an important decision, often running through their brains are tons of informations that made sense and don't make sense. Sometimes we are forced to make decisions, whether we like it or not. In the end of the day, people often tell you that it is good and wise that you make a decision when it turn out right. However, when it was the time you had to make a decision that seemed stupid and unwise, 101 people willl be there to object. Very true indeed every word and message given by these people made lots of sense and in fact you yourself will start contradicting to make your decision look so bad but you will still take the wrong one. Everyone deemed that it will be a mistake but will it be? Who is to decide what is wrong and what is right? People often say think and people often say do as your heart is contented. What if that is the happiness one is looking for, the heart and not the brain, not the soul and not the body but the heart? Humans are susceptible to making the wrong decision but it is important to make a decision than not making one. Leaving things hanging are never good, people hurt people on the way for a long time. Your decision may not be right but do what makes you happy not what makes everyone else happy even it hurts the most. It's like beautiful stars, everyone of them are so beautiful, captivating, yearning for you but you can never be certain it isn't dying. You just got to believe and do what you can to make it beautiful. Appreciate it

Really?

I don't have a heart. It is cold n frozen. Won't feel a thing. Won't let it feel a thing. Don't trust a thing. Don't want anything. Don't want to love. Don't want to hate. Don't want so many things. Don't want you. Don't want him. Don't want her. Don't think its right. Don't think its wrong. Don't think its cruel. Don't think its normal. Don't understand. Don't want to understand. Don't want to see. Don't want to accept reality. Don't want to own. Don't want to have. Don't want to know. Don't want to read. Don't want to predict. Don't want to guess. Don't want at all... really?

LBEFGOIW

The 'List' showed evidence.
The 'Book' reads the memories.
The 'Emotions tells the lie.
The 'Friends' whisper into the ear.
The 'Guy' hides in his lost world.
The 'One' has yet to find it's way.
'I' have yet to wake up
The 'World' is still spinning as it is.

No such thing as not meant to be

Today i made a decision to let go of this locked heart to allow it to grow. I tortured myself long enough and realised that there is no point anymore to try to trap a flying bird, i will let him go. Let him fly far far away and one day when he realised that he actually belongs to the cage, he will come back and if he doesn't, well that is destined. Fated that he came to my life and destined that he left and never come back. O well, o well i finally know how to love. To love someone is not to keep them but to let them go. Let them explore their inner self and know what they want truly and deeply inside. If it's not meant to be, it is just not. Don't force it anymore. Let him go, let your self go. Though it is going to be harder than what you would be willing to experience but it is your choice the moment you promise yourself to love. One has to be responsible for every action they do. You chose to love, you have chose to take pain or happiness. One has to grow up. There is no such as not meant to be, only have such a thing as i give up. If one don't give up but learn to see the beauty of another, trust me love will be there. You made love up. You decide whether you want to love or not. You decide whether it is you or not. You decide whether it is right or not. It is not predetermined. No such thing as not meant to be~ believe

The Gift of Love

A risk is taken today. Beautiful weather turned into dark scary storms that calms down after. What an intense weather. Feelings can be intense too? Can someone control the uncontrollable? People tend to be emotionally affected so deeply till it breaks the core of a soul and spirit! Those who break it will never, never ever understand how hurt one person can be. Those who have the ultimate passion will always go back to the one person they love most regardless how painful or stabbing their hearts felt. Love is such a crazy risk. How can a love so beautiful slip away? How can such passion ran away? How can one feel so much love yet fear and pain? What is this love that kills one yet brings life? So much running in my mind. Love is definitely not the most important concept of life and yet i am feeling so much, so much passion and fear. I am taking a risk to go back instead of jumping off the cliff because i absolutely believe that love conquers all. But am i right? Will i be the foolish lover again? Probably is but loving someone is the greatest gift that God has given me. My life is dedicated to love, loving him, loving family, loving friends, loving those who needs me, loving the world but me. To love others is to sacrifice me. And i die willingly in the name of love. Lord hold me, give me the strength to love others with passion without regrets! Give me the power to help and support others, those who needs me, send me as an angel to them.