For once something real about my life

Today or in fact for many other days, i haven't been writing. I have yet to express my cold feelings. I do not know why or who am i most of the time to tell the world the truth. Do many people know who they are? Anyway, today is a boring day and you know why? Simply cause i am not working. I like it though...cause i owned the house for once...with no one but me only. I slept till late. I again waiting for things. I made bread again but it tasted bad...cause i refuse to use the recipe. I do not understand why i do not want to use the recipe but i suppose i hate to conform to what people ask me to do as much as they are right at times. Perhaps i can call it principle or stubborn? Either one, i shall change soon as one of my new year resolutions. I was reading a friend's blog. She wished for her mum's health to be good soon. I will pray for you too. And i am amazed with your dedication in improving your english. I should learn from you. Life should be viewed in a more confident and positive state. Anyway hope to see you online sometime Eva. Anyway tomorrow i will be working in the pharmacy. At the mean time, i should be sleeping. I should quit thinking for thoughts of many things are never good for life. Life should flow as a river. One cannot force the course of nature. They can choose to go west or east or north or south and no matter how hard one try to push a gushing river to another direction, they never will follow. Alright, probably i will write again tomorrow if i have the mood. All i do today was sleep, eat one meal, watch Maiden's Vow, Naruto, internet, msn, made bread and jelly (can't be eaten...new recipe...fail!) and sleeping soon again...no idea why...i just dun feel like sleeping...too much to feel but no where to express...