5W & 1 H

I asked why is why call why? And what is why when what itself dunno what is it? when will i get my what and why when what and why do not know when or where were what and why found? Who will ever solve this why, what, when and where puzzle? THE answer: Why ask what when i don't know how or who knows where is the answer?

Ps. Why, what, when, where, who and how are simply what we used when all solutions are vagued and lost.

Today as usual, another working day...life has been weird and still troublesome as ever simply because i view it that way but I am cool. I am still cool. I am learning to chill and sort of accept? I have been doing absolutely nothing. I work, watch tvb series, sleep and eat. Life seemed a little dull this way and yes i still think alot. That i supposed is one thing I can never change about myself. I even think while watching series. I think of the significance of the series but i still enjoyed myself ofc. Laughing and crying with its every moment though it is simply just a show was amazing in my opinion. Weird as it may seem, I love them. I feel and understand their emotions. I experienced their fun and all. That is the only way i can get some life out of a life of my own.

For once something real about my life

Today or in fact for many other days, i haven't been writing. I have yet to express my cold feelings. I do not know why or who am i most of the time to tell the world the truth. Do many people know who they are? Anyway, today is a boring day and you know why? Simply cause i am not working. I like it though...cause i owned the house for once...with no one but me only. I slept till late. I again waiting for things. I made bread again but it tasted bad...cause i refuse to use the recipe. I do not understand why i do not want to use the recipe but i suppose i hate to conform to what people ask me to do as much as they are right at times. Perhaps i can call it principle or stubborn? Either one, i shall change soon as one of my new year resolutions. I was reading a friend's blog. She wished for her mum's health to be good soon. I will pray for you too. And i am amazed with your dedication in improving your english. I should learn from you. Life should be viewed in a more confident and positive state. Anyway hope to see you online sometime Eva. Anyway tomorrow i will be working in the pharmacy. At the mean time, i should be sleeping. I should quit thinking for thoughts of many things are never good for life. Life should flow as a river. One cannot force the course of nature. They can choose to go west or east or north or south and no matter how hard one try to push a gushing river to another direction, they never will follow. Alright, probably i will write again tomorrow if i have the mood. All i do today was sleep, eat one meal, watch Maiden's Vow, Naruto, internet, msn, made bread and jelly (can't be eaten...new recipe...fail!) and sleeping soon again...no idea why...i just dun feel like sleeping...too much to feel but no where to express...

Rainbow at the end of a storm

We have sunny days,
We have rainy days,
These days are like life,
Where happy times and sad times exist,
One can be afraid to face the warm light,
Though it's warm,
One is afraid because when it is off,
One will have to go back to the dark,
Should one avoid this light to avoid the ultimate torture?
Or should one face this warmness, take it and face the risk?

A friend said,
Life is like a weather,
Sometimes sunny, sometimes wet,
but after a rain,
there will be a rainbow waiting at the end of a storm.

One should see life the way my friend sees it because that is what happiness is all about and I as a human is trying hard to see life that way yet all i wanted was the simple happy feeling

A Message of Reminder

Hmm...not interested in writing a poem today...i was watching high school musical 2 just now on tv and it obviously not as good as the first one however i learned lots from it. Again i am thinking a lot when i should not be, considering it is a holiday, summer holiday but what can i say, always be alert to learn from whatever you get to aid in your future life and decision. In summary what i learned is to appreciate what is today, to love and miss what is today and not look too far to the future to the extent i forget what i am feeling now which is the most important instead of constantly hunting for the truth or deeper meaning. I truly wonder if i will actually adapt to this but i know this is a good message. Don't lose yourself in the midst of aiming for the highest, for your future. Don't doubt yourself or try to predict or want to be in control of your future because plan changes and when it changes, not even yourself can control because you can't control fate. I once learned that the failure to plan is the failure to life but recently i had also learned that the failure to accept changes in plan is the failure to yourself, to your life because plan changes. Well this is not an advice for the world because this is something i am writing down to remind myself about how much i am a thinker that sometimes ruined what is most precious because i fail to see today and only tomorrow.

Mindset

How do u feel when you are down for no apparent reason? when you're thinking too much when you shouldn't or even feeling restless despite the fact you are supposed to be calmed and happy. I do not know the answer to that but but i know i m feeling that for whatever reason...life is all about a piece / peace of mind...

Butter buns making at midnite...

In progress buns

A plate of butter buns?

Buns?

My finger and the bun?

I made butter buns today. It didn't turn out as what i wanted but good enough considering my first time baking these things. I guess i was in a hurry to make it since its too late that it is not very fluffy as how buns should be cause i didn't allow it to stand long enough...lol...o well...ing ling since you're not here, i got to eat them all alone...sob sob*** i was bored and trying to finish the flour and also cause i watch Yakitate! n i was inspired to make it lol! Yun would so understand this. Miss you all...haih...all of you! Happy holidays! come back soon!

Randomisation ie understanding?

Songs sang with passion,
Where people listen closely,
Not just the ears that hear them,
But the heart that felt them,
What is the significant of a song?,
We can ask and perhaps many answers will be out,
But what is the true one?
Does it matter?
Human's curosity can be so high sometimes,
We fail to see the bigger picture,
But is it so wrong to be curious?
To want to know?
What is life, hiding and seeing things so simply?
Life is to be explored and understand,
One shall not just see what one feel,
But also what they see in others,
How to put one feelings aside to feel others?
Its not possible?...mankind be it selfish for it is a sin born with them