Rainbow at the end of a storm

We have sunny days,
We have rainy days,
These days are like life,
Where happy times and sad times exist,
One can be afraid to face the warm light,
Though it's warm,
One is afraid because when it is off,
One will have to go back to the dark,
Should one avoid this light to avoid the ultimate torture?
Or should one face this warmness, take it and face the risk?

A friend said,
Life is like a weather,
Sometimes sunny, sometimes wet,
but after a rain,
there will be a rainbow waiting at the end of a storm.

One should see life the way my friend sees it because that is what happiness is all about and I as a human is trying hard to see life that way yet all i wanted was the simple happy feeling

A Message of Reminder

Hmm...not interested in writing a poem today...i was watching high school musical 2 just now on tv and it obviously not as good as the first one however i learned lots from it. Again i am thinking a lot when i should not be, considering it is a holiday, summer holiday but what can i say, always be alert to learn from whatever you get to aid in your future life and decision. In summary what i learned is to appreciate what is today, to love and miss what is today and not look too far to the future to the extent i forget what i am feeling now which is the most important instead of constantly hunting for the truth or deeper meaning. I truly wonder if i will actually adapt to this but i know this is a good message. Don't lose yourself in the midst of aiming for the highest, for your future. Don't doubt yourself or try to predict or want to be in control of your future because plan changes and when it changes, not even yourself can control because you can't control fate. I once learned that the failure to plan is the failure to life but recently i had also learned that the failure to accept changes in plan is the failure to yourself, to your life because plan changes. Well this is not an advice for the world because this is something i am writing down to remind myself about how much i am a thinker that sometimes ruined what is most precious because i fail to see today and only tomorrow.

Mindset

How do u feel when you are down for no apparent reason? when you're thinking too much when you shouldn't or even feeling restless despite the fact you are supposed to be calmed and happy. I do not know the answer to that but but i know i m feeling that for whatever reason...life is all about a piece / peace of mind...

Butter buns making at midnite...

In progress buns

A plate of butter buns?

Buns?

My finger and the bun?

I made butter buns today. It didn't turn out as what i wanted but good enough considering my first time baking these things. I guess i was in a hurry to make it since its too late that it is not very fluffy as how buns should be cause i didn't allow it to stand long enough...lol...o well...ing ling since you're not here, i got to eat them all alone...sob sob*** i was bored and trying to finish the flour and also cause i watch Yakitate! n i was inspired to make it lol! Yun would so understand this. Miss you all...haih...all of you! Happy holidays! come back soon!

Randomisation ie understanding?

Songs sang with passion,
Where people listen closely,
Not just the ears that hear them,
But the heart that felt them,
What is the significant of a song?,
We can ask and perhaps many answers will be out,
But what is the true one?
Does it matter?
Human's curosity can be so high sometimes,
We fail to see the bigger picture,
But is it so wrong to be curious?
To want to know?
What is life, hiding and seeing things so simply?
Life is to be explored and understand,
One shall not just see what one feel,
But also what they see in others,
How to put one feelings aside to feel others?
Its not possible?...mankind be it selfish for it is a sin born with them

Thinking

Everyday we think,
Think of the angel,
Think of the devil,
We think so much that we kill our smiles,
We think so critically that we ruin surprises,
We think so judgementally that we scare friends away,
We think so far that we fear to face,
We think so deep, we read ones' minds
We think so meaningfully that every word meant more than it should mean,
We think so passionately that every emotions are overwhelmed,
We think so logically that we dare not do a thing,
We think so confidently that failure is not an option,
We think others think like us,
But perhaps we are wrong because it's just you that think of life this way.

Ps. Life is not perfect but you just got to accept what you can to feel the ultimate happiness, quit thinking and start enjoying

Risk vs Fate

I have things in my mind that requires time to solve and yet i am here doubting every single thing in life. Does it need to be that complicated? I am sure that i am a clear person with a mind that sort things out pretty well and yet i still have thoughts lingering around me. Is this life where sometimes the worst decision is actually made because decisions are simply too difficult to make? I wondered if i will regret what i am about to do soon. Hopefully this is a pretty picture and not a dark and Grey one that i will tear for. No matter what, i am clear that i will only tear and never cry hard. It is life, things happen and things goes wrong but sometimes they are pretty. We just need to move on with the wave. Though it is tough and cold in the sea but as long as we have hopes, we know that the wave will one day float us to the right way. I understand that fire is dangerous and i am playing with fire which probably if i get burn, i blame no one but me and myself. A friend told me life is a risk, die doing it or regret through life. Perhaps this friend of mine is right. Another friend tell me that life is written as a fate, no matter how far you run or go, it will return to you if it is yours. So one is risk and one is fate? Which is right when they both contradicts? If fate is there, should i risk since it will be mine anyway or if risk matters then fate does not determine at all, it is the courage i have today. How come am i feeling so strongly about things? Is this the destiny that is leading me? or am i just being naive, daring enough to place my life to fate? One will soon put their very precious to fate's hand and at the same time take the risk of their life. This is what we call a bet. Letting go fate and taking risk. Good luck

Inner feelings

Don't u think that is beautiful? I think so...i wish to go again. It is so peaceful n beautiful. It is picture like this that made life more meaningful. This picture is taken long ago at Tunnel beach. And till now the cool breeze can still be felt. Exams or finals as many says are coming. I hope i don't fail. I need a chance to see this again. I want to go here will an open heart, smiling with joy and not regrets and crushed soul. May things be smooth and may no one sees this. The inner spirit that is determine to fight is coming out soon. Hopefully that is enough...

Ps. A sun rise to brighten the world but is afraid so it comes out slowly,
A sun sets to say good bye to the world, leaving reluctantly,
A heart rise slowly to say hello but is afraid to see what is coming,
A heart once crushed shall hide inside and stay for good,
A heart asked to open shall have doubts and fears,
Just as the sun, a person have inner feelings

The Mid-Autumn Festival

Once a year people gather,
Used to be the Chinese people,
Nowadays everyone gather,
Those who remember the day of the moon,
One shall think i am silly to write this,
But it is meaningful to those who understands,
The Mid-Autumn Festival,
Nothing fancy, nothing big,
Just some cakes that looks like moon,
With some lantern that lit the dark,
Those with tales shall laugh with it,
Those who don't shall joke around,
Mid-Autumn Feast is more than those,
It is the company,
It is the laughter,
It is the friendship,
That we cherished most at times like this...
Happy Mid-Autumn Festival everyone!

ps. dedicated to Ingling who wanted a poem for the mid autumn festival...

Born for a reason?

I can't study,
I can't focus,
I can't find my passion,
I can't understand my heart,
I can't see my heart smiling,
I can't see myself satisfied,
I don't want to see myself hate,
I don't want to see life too deep,
I don't want to be selfish,
I don't want many things in life,
As oppose to many people want too much for their life,
Everyone is special,
Everyone is born for a reason,
Am i lying to myself to make it feels like i have a purpose?,
Do one have a purpose?,
What is the purpose?,
One can search, one can sacrifice but one can never understand.

You're still you

Fear can exist in some and merely a word to others,
Fall can be such a fearful word to some but encouragement to others,
Dreams can be fragile to some but tough to others,
Hopes can be build by some but destroy by others,
Confidence is merely a word made to encourage,
Encouragement is just a courage made out forcefully,
Courage is nothing more than a determine heart,
Determination decides how far one run,
Still judgment is the decider
But you're still you

Why?

Why is the sky today black?
Why did I wasted all my time walking around today?
Why am i so angry at life?
Why am i so emotional?
Why am i so sad?
Why is everything is a mess?
Why did i keep writing?
Why did i keep asking why?
Why don't i understand what i am feeling?
Why am i lost?
Why am i not reasonable?
Why is the road so hard to walk?
Why is the fastest man today happy?
Why is the victims' family of the Spain plane crash sad?
Why are there so many problems in the world?
Why am i feeling empty?
Why am i lonely when i shouldn't?
Why are there so many doubts?
Why are there so many questions?
Why am i thinking so deep?
Why am i so tangled?
Why can't i straighten up?
Why? Why? Why?
Why is life so complicated?
WHY ASK WHEN NO ONE WILL TELL YOU THE ANSWER?

ps. No one shall depend upon no one , for everyone is born with whys and will never get an answer from no one but oneself

Light of hope

Smile is simple sweet,
Laughter is all about the stories,
Happiness comes from the heart,
Satisfaction appears from understanding,
Life is as simple as what eyes see,
Emotions are a mix of feelings,
How you feel is just how you see life,
One shall not express too openly,
Yet one shall not be alone,
Do not be too cold yet warm,
Life shall be seen as it is,
Everyday is another day,
Yesterday is a memory,
Today is a treasure,
Tomorrow is a new beginning...

Ps. Love yourself more than anyone else but care for others with a whole heart. Life is all about light of hope

What is Love?

Love is such sweet sorrow,

Love can be warm and yet cold,

Love can live or die,

Love can fires or fades,

Love can be such nuisance yet needing,

Love can be such importance yet nothing,

Love exist in such a way that it can be simple yet complicated,

Love is something we yearn yet we reject,

Love can be something we regret and yet grateful,

Love creates memories we love and hate,

Love is something special in each ones heart

What is love to you?

Love

Love is such sweet sorrow. The taste of honey as you first sip on it and the taste of bile when you taste the last drop. Love can be complicated and simple at the same time. Which way do you want to view it or should i say taste it? Sacrifice is love? Or am i wrong to say that? Is love just fun and enjoyments of the company of two people who never sincerely felt warm or cared for each other? Life can be such brutal statement at times. You tried hard to feel nothing but nothing is worse than something. What is nothing and what is something? Would feeling something makes one more alert? Or is it just a feeling of nothingness eventually? Life is all about confusions and cruel reality. We refused to see the truth even when those lies will eventually come back to you to slap you back to reality. How painful reality is and how confused one lies within truths and lies. Would one tell the truth even when truth hurts? Will one cry even when tears aren't worthy? Will one smile even when the whole world is frowning? How should one person act to face the cruel reality and brutal statements of society. Human judges. Human expects. Human wishes. Human hopes. Human wants. Human asks. The world is judgmental and do you know how this word comes about? From Judge and mental which means judging people is such a mental constrain to those judged. Ranting about life and love is such waste of time. Love is never pure and sacred in this world. People will never see love as such an importance and those who are blinded shall feel the sweet sorrow of love. Sorrow comes after sweet. Trust love? Up to you to see

10 TRUTHs ABOUT MONEY

1) Money is hard to find but easy to spend
2) Money makes people smile (when you found free money) & cry (when you get rob)
3) Money is everyone's dream and everyone's problem
4) Money can look like that $ or like that = S
5) Money can change people's attitude
6) Money can be used to scare people or help people
7) Money is can be a joke (use to prank others) or serious matter (I don't need to explain do i?)
8) Money is why people fight (fight because you want more) and love (common interest)
9) Money is never enough for anybody in the world but everybody will tell you money is not everything

10) Money is not everything but everything cost money

Boredom chattering!

When it is exam period, you would die to have a break and do nothing. When it is holiday, you are also bored and you want something to do. Now you get a job and you say you are bored in the night. Why? Simply cause you await for that one message to take your boredom away and yet you can't find it. It is the nature of us being human to feel bored easily and to complain. No matter how satisfied you are with life, you will always have something that bugs you even if it doesn't really affect your life what so ever. Believe it or not, we tend to take things for granted. We think that the world owe us that we can just do nothing and wish for things to happen but that is not the case. When we have something, we will complain and try to push it away, giving 3 million excuses saying how bad it is. When we lose it, then we cry. We want it bad. We beg to get it. We pray we are given it. We hope they come to us but do anybody actually care then? Only those who truly love you will but those you neglect countless times will one day leave and never return because that is the reality of the world. They go to someone better with more love and attention.

Feel as you listen to the unknown?

Can one feel when they close their eyes as wind gently blow pass them? Is it such a miracle when great unexpected things happen? Is as human we tend to see things passively? Or too positively? Which way are we heading? What can our feeling do to us as we listen to the unknown? Unknown could be anything, anything that gives u a feeling. One shall not fear if they feel no more. It simply means the deeper side of things are unseen. But those unseen things probably make life simpler. Life can be complicated when viewed in such a discrete way. Despite all the complication, having feelings of fear, hatred, angst, love, passion, sorrows or even confusion are part of life that made life meaningful. We live for a reason and die without a reason. Understanding is merely just an illusion but feeling is what the heart tells us deep from within.

Exam!

Today is still one of those days where exam rules and caffeine takes over you. For some reason I tend to feel better with coffee being the one that write my exam. Again I am not a fan of coffee. In fact i hate. I am just drinking it cause i feel smarter with it or at least i study and write much faster. My mind is still filled with the anime story and i am still kind of obsessed with it. I wished exam was over and i can finally forget about it but i can't and still stuck with it. Perhaps i should return to my studies or should i resume into a new anime? I want to draw them and in fact read the manga or recreated a new plot entirely with a better ending. I am too ambitious in that and i should really focus on what i am doing which i am not really enjoying really. Well who cares. In whatever we do we should try our best! And exam stress is not a good thing

Star Cross Lovers: Romeo x Juliet

Star_Cross_Lovers. I got this name from the anime Romeo X Juliet and it is a beautifully anime which tells us the story of true love and the insignificance of life without sacrifice. Personally I enjoyed the whole series despite what others said about it being boring or slow. It is how you see the anime that gives you the satisfaction. The plot wasn't boring at all. Maybe at times, it seemed almost cheeky or surreal but it is fantasy. I believe when Gonzo was writing this, he sticked to the idea of true love, conflict and tragedy based mainly on Shakespeare's original version. Gonzo changed the plot drastically and perhaps even gone a mile further to make Shakespeare's idea come to life. I think Gonzo made this anime well and the emotions by the characters seemed so real and i loved how i can read them even though they are not human. I once hated to watch anime but then i realised how much i can actually feel the emotions from them, probably even more realistic than the actual feeling from a real person. I love how Romeo first met Juliet and how Juliet is no longer weak but a strong heroic warrior. I love how Romeo fight to make the world they dreamed of and despite all objections and punishment upon him, he always manage to move on based solely on the love they had for each other. I love the idea of how a simple flower, Iris can remind Romeo and Juliet of their love. I love how Romeo will fight and in fact kill Juliet to take her burden and sin upon himself. In my opinion, it is easy to die for the one you love but it is never easy to hurt the one you love. I absolutely love how Romeo died in Juliet arms and his last words to her. It is touching to see the exchanged of emotions between them and the chance for them to actually say good bye to each other. The good quality of the anime really brings life to the characters not to mention the theme song Inori You Raise Me up gives the complete touch to it. This anime may have a simple idea and at times some random scene that ruined the anime but the love between the star cross lovers bring life to it and create the true meaning of love we can no longer see in this world which is symbolized by the death of the Escalus. Gonzo tells us not only the main theme of love, betrayal and sacrifice but also the deeper meaning that one day humans' sins will destroy the world unless we learn to love them because those who actually want to sacrifice themselves to save the world are only the few (Juliet in this case) while the leaders are corrupted by sins (Grand Duke) and people who will follows orders despite right or wrong because of power (Mercutio) and good fighters who wants to fight but barely have the power to (Romeo) and innocent people who suffers the fate from the conflicts created. Romeo X Juliet is definitely an anime worth watching for those who actually want to see a deeper meaning in a simple anime and for people who just want a simple romantic anime that brings emotions to life. The star cross lovers is a symbol of everlasting stars upon the sky that will shine brightly for each other in life or death.